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Spirituality

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 22:16:34 GMT

I have had an awakening.
Of many things.

I have come to realize-
That I can be a strong spiritual leader.
That faith can help me through the struggles of my life.
That I do not want to be a person of doubt,
I want to be someone who helps settle doubt.
That I long for deep spiritually meaningful relationships.

And I realize that it is hard to have these things,
But I can strive for them.

If I Make It.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 19:31:36 GMT

[A more complete version of this song, with added verse and alternate chorus for the ending ]

She doesn’t like to open up and,

Talk about whats on her mind

She thinks I need to sober up and,

She left me behind

I know she still likes to brush her teeth,

I know she’s so over me

Yeah I wrote all my songs for her,

No she doesn’t want a thing to do with me anymore

And I cant make it through this…

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

Ive spent so many lonely nights,

Drinking her out of my head,

I don’t know whats right,

But Ive smoked away the things she said.

Back then I couldn’t get her out of my bed,

Today she wouldn’t care if I was dead

Reminds me of something that I read

Nice guys never get ahead

And I cant make it through this…

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

But I still got my six string and,

My old chevy Malibu

Instead of worry, now I sing,

Lazy days are what I do.

And I might make it through this…

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

And I-

Im ready for another try

Lost it all, ive got nothing to lose

Lazy days, are what I do.

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 23:57:28 GMT

She doesn’t like to open up and,

Talk about whats on her mind

She thinks I need to sober up and,

She left me behind

I know she still likes to brush her teeth,

I know she’s so over me

Yeah I wrote all my songs for her,

No she doesn’t want a thing to do with me anymore

And I cant make it through this…

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

Ive spent so many lonely nights,

Drinking you out of my head,

I don’t know whats right,

But Ive smoked away the things you said.

I don't know where I went wrong,

But I am just doing what I can,

Everybody just sings along

But they don't know who I am

And I can't make it through this...
Tell me what did I miss...

And I----

Don’t know when Ill die

But if I make it through the night,

I know that Ill be allright

And we-

Don’t know what we see

But if we make it through the night,

I know that well be allright.

The End

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 16:28:34 GMT

Learning this song right now.
I love it.
But the guitar is a little hard in the beginning.
The End by Sliverstein

First time we met
Face became etched
In my mind
You were the sun
I was the one who worshipped you
My hands were your guns
Your eyes were my muse

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart

You broke my heart
You promised me the moon and stars
I fell for your dreams
I fell for your lies
There was no other way
You know I tried

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach
But can I still keep
A place in your heart

There is something
I want you to know
I think you know exactly what it is
I didn't want to save you
I didn't want to save you
I set our house on fire
To watch it burn
But I couldn't just leave you

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach
But I'll ask you this
Will you still miss me?
(I still miss you)
Will you love me?
(Yes, I love you)

Planes fill the sky
We'll both die tonight
We'll both die tonight
Hands from the sky
Swat us away like flies
As we follow the light
x2

We'll both die tonight
We'll both die tonight

Swat us away like flies
We'll both die tonight
As we follow the light

This union, a battle fought and lost
This union was not about the cause
This union was never about love

Who you are

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 03:02:21 GMT

Now I know,
That I am not,
The best with words

But I will
Keep on singing
Im gunna be heard.

Im kind of
a persistent person
Im not one to give up.

Always
I continue learning,
Even when I am down on my luck

And your so good
at keepin it all
locked up inside

I know
my love
Your so confused
Welcome
to the club,
there is nothing we can do

And we are still on this
Roller Coaster
Even months after
It has been over

And all these things you say to me
I see through them so clearly
Because I know who you are,
I know who you are,

And you cant
Hide your self
from me,

Because I know
You sweet heart
And I can see

And we are still on this
Roller Coaster
Even months after
It has been over

And all these things you say to me
I see through them so clearly
Because I know who you are,
I know who you are,

[to be continued]

song I am listening to right now.

I can see

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 19:40:48 GMT

I have been lost,
More times than I care to count.
Ive been so lost,
I have been so full of doubt.

I couldnt see, I couldnt see,
That you where standing next to me,
I couldnt see, I couldnt see,
That your all I needed to be free.

Your voice, how sweet the sound,
That could save someone like me,
I was so lost, but now Im found,
I was blind, but now I see...
So clearly

I can see...

The birds of the air,
they dont have a care
The daisies are dressed,
so royally.

They have no troubles,
They have no worries,
Its not so subtle,
Why must I hurry.

[finish later]

fuck

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 16:46:14 GMT

Its not that I am brooding.
It just kind of sits at the back of my mind,
and eats away at me.
Makes me anxious, makes me nauseous.

But thats life.

I hope you will watch this one.
Ohio by Bowling for Soup

"So when your done, doing what ever. When your through, doing whoever,"

funk

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 08:36:16 GMT

I seem to be in a funk.
Its hard to describe.
Not so depressed, which is good,
But its hard for me to be interested in much of anything.
Especially girls.

any ways, I think for posts that are not poetry or songs,
I might start posting videos that seem relevant.
Here is the first.

All I Want Is More-Reel Big Fish

Supersonic Speed

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 17:26:47 GMT

[I have already made a song called this, but I am remaking it, and now the lyrics are updated.]

Ill throw away
Everything I need
Cause lifes been moving
At a supersonic speed

And Ill give back
Everything I love
Ill give it back
To God above

I'd like to come
away with you
But you got your ties
To much to do

But you wont sit here
By my side
I will wait here
To fight this tide

My visions
Blurry
My heads
Confused

But please
dont worry
Cause beggers
They cant choose

Ill take a bottle of booze

Ive got nothing to lose

You should talk a walk in my shoes

My heads so damn confused.

I cant separate these,
from all my memories
from all my dreams,
broken self esteem.

Hey there
One that I love
Hey there
One from above

Hey there
Log in my eye
Hey there
One who left me to die

My visions
Blurry
My heads
Confused

But please
dont worry
Cause beggers
They cant choose

Ill take a bottle of booze

Ive got nothing to lose

You should talk a walk in my shoes

My heads so damn confused.

Ill throw away
Everything I need
Cause lifes been moving
At a supersonic speed

And Ill give back
Everything I love
Ill give it back
To God above

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 06:55:28 GMT

I'm working on my album.